sobota, 26. novembra 2011

I met you for a reason

For reason, you show me how to be stronger person. Because you don´t know how strong you are until being strong is a only choice you have.

piatok, 18. novembra 2011

It only hurts, when you pretend it doesn´t...

I wish I could just swallow my pride and tell you all the things I´ve been hiding since we broke up. And I wish you could do the same, because it´s kind of very obvoius that you´re not over me. So please, just stop acting like you don´t care and like you don´t give a fuck. I know you do. I just wish you could say it straight to my face instead of just hiding it all inside of yours brain. It´ll only cause us both way more pain.

I just don´t understand it. I pretend I´m strong and over it. I´m not. Every one stupid day i think how nice it´ll can be with you. When I gave you a chance. But I can´t. I want, but there´s so many pain betweens us. Have you ever fell the same? Do you ever miss me? I mean trully, aching in bottom-of-your-heart pain, which you just can´t ignore? Because that´s how I feel. Every single day.


I want to be over it. But still is here something, that take me back. I wish one day, you´ll know what you lost. And i wish I´ll be happy. Without you, because there´s so many reasons to live hapilly. Life is too short to regreting what once made you smile. (:

piatok, 11. novembra 2011

I want to live so that i never regret my past...

Tak prežila som ďalší týždeň plný stresu zo školy a hlúpeho vyčítania si chýb z minulosti. Ale čo bolo, bolo. Mám pocit, ako by som už občas chcela začať znova. Chcem sa prebúdzať s pocitom, že som šťastná a mať milion dôvodov sa usmievať.


Ale nie, vždy sa nájde nejaká osoba, ktorá by Vás najradšej videla na dne. Občas mám pocit, že to už nezvládnem, že po tom všetkom čo medzi nami bolo sa neviem tváriť, že Ťa nepoznám. Naozaj mi chýbaš, ale neviem dať druhú šancu človeku ktorý mi ukázal aké je to cítiť sa na totálnom dne. A práve preto  som určite hrozná osoba a zaslúžim si aby ma všetci neznášali a aby si o mne musel klamať. Stačilo. Viem, že toto je len výkrik do tmy. Ale ja nevládzem, nechcem sa už trápiť minulosťou.


 Chcem byť šťastná, a proste budem. Budem sebecká, ale šťastná. A nikto mi to nebude kaziť, pretože teraz už viem kto sú naozaj ľudia ktorým na mne záleží. (:

sobota, 5. novembra 2011

If you really loved me, only thing you want to change on me is my last name...

Niekedy proste potrebujete prebrať a uvedomiť si pre koho sa oplatí žiť. Komu na Vás záleží a komu nikdy nezáležalo. Ja som si toto už uvedomila. A rozhodla som sa usmievať a netrápiť nad niekým kto za to nestojí. A keby stál nenechal by Vás trápiť sa. Že keby Vás mal naozaj rád nechcel by Vás meniť, mať z Vás niekoho iného. Takže od dnes sa idem usmievať a hľadať si ďalšie a ďalšie dôvody usmievať sa.

utorok, 1. novembra 2011

Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made...who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

It’s like you’re screaming, and no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed, that someone could be that important that without them you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. And when it’s over, and it’s gone, you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back, so that you could have the good... 
You want to be happy, but you can´t. There´s so many paintful memories, so many things you sacrificed to be with that one person, who hurt you. Now you´re just sitting there and telling yourself you´re fine. You need to stop thinking about past, because it will make you sad or mentally kill you. Theory is simple- forget him...it´s simple to say it, but worse to do. But it will be fine. Once. (: